New Timey Destiny Design

He knows I love the raw ‘nut’, to see the gem still incorporated with its conditions is so luscious to me. This boulder opal was intentionally left behind. I can’t wait to get back out at the mine with him, or anywhere with him really.

I have been training in Brazilian Jiu Jitsu at a facility near my home on the north shore here, I have been working 65+ hour weeks at the shop and the next phase of the evolution is to ride it in with grace.  The only thing tougher than a chickee staying so busy is one who doesn’t complain about it and still wears a smile.  

In other news we have had some lovely koa cabinets moving through the shop. Peep that curly figure! I am finding myself with increasing overtime compared to the last few weeks…

Among various left behind items including a couple shirts and some Aussie jockies was the lei I had for him upon pick up at the airport. These reminders are bittersweet.  I am having to put a lot of effort into staying busy until we see each other once more in September.

Among various left behind items including a couple shirts and some Aussie jockies was the lei I had for him upon pick up at the airport. These reminders are bittersweet. I am having to put a lot of effort into staying busy until we see each other once more in September.

I’m feeling the spectrum.Sweet Matey stayed for a fast moving six weeks, and is off stomping around Europe.  
I had a relationship I kept under wraps when I was in high school. She was an upperclassman and half-japanese, she was very cute and very aware.  I have always been a tom boy, her feminine nature was quite a contrast to my hard wiring, I would think we balanced out in that space. Ultimately, in the confusion and secrecy the relationship brought in I discovered we had much less in common in more important matters.  She isn’t an attractive person inside, proved to be very manipulative and transparent.  All of the stress I went through to juggle social concerns and be a good girlfriend weren’t wasted however.  Along with pointers and insights on navigating the female form, potentially unknowingly, she provided me with a bench mark on the type of persons I do not wish to get close to in the future.  
Over the next few years my perception of beauty broadened and became validated with the figures coming into my life.  I have been lucky to become close with some lovely ladies and gents alike, open to some of the stickyness that can come with it.I still haven’t been in any conventional long term commitments since I made a vow to myself that I wouldn’t camouflage a relationship again. In hindsight I appreciate why I was discrete about the girl in high school, still growing into myself.  My current stand point is more willing to challenge the conditions that used to make me uneasy, I haven’t got a desire to be with someone that I can’t be proud of, and I don’t want to live in an environment that won’t embrace that choice.Sweet Matey is sixteen years my senior, most of the time I can revert back to my vow and find solace in the notion that if that is our largest difference or hurdle -with the connection we have, then we’re doing alright.The distance in time and geography certainly confront my insecurities, but I have yet to meet anyone who has gotten to know my fingerprint like he has.  He has his own baggage but hasn’t been reluctant to take on mine, or to cast out for my dreams and go as far as to help me generate a budget to achieve some of them for this next twelve months.There is a spectrum I dance and flop across, this photo comes from Baldwin Beach one afternoon with Sweet Matey by my side.  He had been drawing components of diesel engines in the sand as visual aids in our conversation, I am very fond of his mechanical knowledge and humbleness.While the spectrum can sure be cloudy, at least it offers a depth and richness I can use to color my life.

I’m feeling the spectrum.

Sweet Matey stayed for a fast moving six weeks, and is off stomping around Europe.  

I had a relationship I kept under wraps when I was in high school. She was an upperclassman and half-japanese, she was very cute and very aware.  I have always been a tom boy, her feminine nature was quite a contrast to my hard wiring, I would think we balanced out in that space. Ultimately, in the confusion and secrecy the relationship brought in I discovered we had much less in common in more important matters.  She isn’t an attractive person inside, proved to be very manipulative and transparent.  All of the stress I went through to juggle social concerns and be a good girlfriend weren’t wasted however.  Along with pointers and insights on navigating the female form, potentially unknowingly, she provided me with a bench mark on the type of persons I do not wish to get close to in the future.  

Over the next few years my perception of beauty broadened and became validated with the figures coming into my life.  I have been lucky to become close with some lovely ladies and gents alike, open to some of the stickyness that can come with it.

I still haven’t been in any conventional long term commitments since I made a vow to myself that I wouldn’t camouflage a relationship again. In hindsight I appreciate why I was discrete about the girl in high school, still growing into myself.  My current stand point is more willing to challenge the conditions that used to make me uneasy, I haven’t got a desire to be with someone that I can’t be proud of, and I don’t want to live in an environment that won’t embrace that choice.

Sweet Matey is sixteen years my senior, most of the time I can revert back to my vow and find solace in the notion that if that is our largest difference or hurdle -with the connection we have, then we’re doing alright.

The distance in time and geography certainly confront my insecurities, but I have yet to meet anyone who has gotten to know my fingerprint like he has.  He has his own baggage but hasn’t been reluctant to take on mine, or to cast out for my dreams and go as far as to help me generate a budget to achieve some of them for this next twelve months.

There is a spectrum I dance and flop across, this photo comes from Baldwin Beach one afternoon with Sweet Matey by my side.  He had been drawing components of diesel engines in the sand as visual aids in our conversation, I am very fond of his mechanical knowledge and humbleness.

While the spectrum can sure be cloudy, at least it offers a depth and richness I can use to color my life.

Celebrating my birthday and a fellow carpenter’s at the shop, cake compliments of some of the nice chickees in the office.

Annnnd about to pick up Sweet Matey from the airport.

Celebrating my birthday and a fellow carpenter’s at the shop, cake compliments of some of the nice chickees in the office.

Annnnd about to pick up Sweet Matey from the airport.

African mahogany and sapele upper bar cabinet engraved on CNC and prepped by yours truly. I may or may not have been involved in the dusty heart scribed on the spray booth..

phantomviolet:

THIS JUST BLEW ME AWAY

Sweet matey has purchased a plane ticket to come gallivant on island with me. And then to roam the mainland together!

Sweet matey has purchased a plane ticket to come gallivant on island with me. And then to roam the mainland together!

thegoldeneternity:

holdthisphoto:

1927

Yeah.


   I started taking a Thai pads class at a gym on the west side of the island with hopes of eventually taking a Muay Thai class offered by the same handsome Polynesian instructor for more seasoned students. He is patient as he tells me to “stop thinking so much” and that I can analyze what he is saying when I am at home. It is confronting, this aggressive dance. I find myself throwing wild kicks and apologies on the mat right now. I also find accomplishment in going for it.

   I have been getting over time weeks at the ol’ cabinet shop since my return and even got a key recently too. I am defining my own form.

thegoldeneternity:

holdthisphoto:

1927

Yeah.

I started taking a Thai pads class at a gym on the west side of the island with hopes of eventually taking a Muay Thai class offered by the same handsome Polynesian instructor for more seasoned students. He is patient as he tells me to “stop thinking so much” and that I can analyze what he is saying when I am at home. It is confronting, this aggressive dance. I find myself throwing wild kicks and apologies on the mat right now. I also find accomplishment in going for it. I have been getting over time weeks at the ol’ cabinet shop since my return and even got a key recently too. I am defining my own form.
Time is a created thing. To say ‘I don’t have time,’ is like saying, ‘I don’t want to.
Thích Nhất Hạnh (via purplebuddhaproject)